Stress, The Future, Travel

"Gah!"

Prefer audio books, or just want to listen along as you read? Well, to work on my confidence with my own voice, I’ve recorded myself reading my journal entries!
I tend to ramble a bit more on side tangents or more elaborations on what I wrote in the audio, so forgive me. I also haven’t edited them, so… you’re gonna hear my goofs and amateurishness on full display.
There’s a little bit of ramble at the start of this one too, skip to 1:00 or 0:31 in the 2x speed version if you want to skip it.

I’ve been busy! Very busy, actually. More busy than I have been in a long time. I want to make time for everything but I’m finding I can’t.

On one hand, it’s nice to have such drive and to feel like I’m accomplishing so much. On the other hand, I can’t take any breaks- I’ve got deadlines, I’ve got things to do everywhere, and even things that could normally just be a fun bit of leisure are shaking out to just be more jobs I have to do. I’m looking forward to finishing this.

Of course, once Halloween is over and I’ve established myself as the #1 Halloween lover in the world, this website, which I’m just internally calling “Project Olive” now, should hopefully be nearly complete, if not fully. I didn’t exactly see it taking so long, but as I’ve worked on it, my scope has increased, and I’ve wanted to continue pushing myself to make something truly worth everyone’s time. I’m hoping once it’s done I’ll be able to get the word out well enough to have people check it out. I can’t tell you how much I’m looking forward to finishing this, as despite how I make it seem, it’s probably the easiest part.

But regardless, I’m going to be traveling a bit, soon. Later this month, in a few days really, I’m going to head off to Canada, where I’ll finally meet up with someone who’s been very close to me for a long time, and maybe even seeing something that’s honestly possibly one the craziest, coolest, and scariest places I can ever imagine to go to. I’m so excited to meet them, give em a hug, hang out, and just be in good company. I’ve wanted to hang out with them for so long now, part of me can hardly believe it’s really happening.

After that, in November, I’m going to be taking a long road trip down, through south Washington, through Oregon, all the way down to Southern California, and possibly all the way clear into Arizona. I love the road, being out with nowhere in particular to go, listening to music, telling stories, watching the sunset in a million different places. I have no idea how long I’ll be gone, how far I’ll go, what I’ll do, who I’ll see, etc. Would be nice to see the grand canyon, visit Yosemite a second time, maybe go further. Lots of options. I’ve done the road from here to SoCal many times before, so being on the road forever barely feels like anything to me.

But as of right now, I have so much to do. It’s crazy. I get done working outside, take a break to go to my computer, and do more work there. I’m moving nonstop! Help! By the time I’m done and I take a shower, I’m too exhausted to do anything else and just collapse into bed… If I’m lucky. Often times I just get sucked back into more work and end up going to sleep at like 4-5 AM. Bonkers.

I have so much I want to do with this site. A lot of cool ideas I want to at least try to do so I can say I attempted. Wish I could work any faster, but I’m already frying myself here. Through it all though, I’m excited, and, probably foolishly, a little hopeful of what’s to come in the near future. Only time will tell.